The whole purpose of my blog is to provide analternative opinion in the Lesbian world. It's not to'support' and 'encourage' the continuing stereotypesand idiocy. The fact is, there's a lot to be angryabout out there! And whether you get angry aboutpolitics or crappy poetry -- well, to each her own.I'm here in the midwest where unless you're a fatbutch with questionable taste in grooming andclothing, the Lesbian community doesn't SEE you. I'min a place where the women form 'bonds' that arereally an excuse for exclusion.You're young, and you have seemed to accomplishedquite a bit on the web. Brava. In reality, however,it's all been a bit of a dissappointment, hasn't it?You're involvement with [group] has left you doubting.That's because women really want something differentthan what's being offered out there.Maybe I'm a small part of that.I will continue to read [your] blog. I find itendlessly amusing. If you put yourself out there,there's no guarantee that everyone will like what youhave to say, or the way you say it. I'm a TERRIFICexample of that double edged sword. I hope that i can start a business one day. A business thats discrimination against non-lesbians. Trust that you and I have a lot more in common than you think. I hate the groups of "A" list lesbians, I have never been fond of mullets, and although I am fat you need to know that I shower daily. I started [group]in 2002 as a way to meet other lesbians in my area. It worked and I now know a wide variety of women throughout the state. Did I expect the drama that occurs, no, but it's just one of those things that has to be dealt with. It's a part of life no matter what private parts you like to touch. And yes [it] has left me doubting. So much in fact that I am currently thinking about letting someone else take it over. I just don't have the passion that I once did to maintain the group. I am also not strong enough to deal with the drama that does occur. I am a big wuss and proud of it!I wouldn't have emailed you if it hadn't been for the photo. I know all those women and they are all sweet and kind. Surely despite your hard core attitude you must know that a book can't always be judged by it's cover. I did exactly that for much too long and it got me no where. Thank you for taking it off the blog, it does mean a lot to me that you would do that.You say that you have to be a fat butch for other lesbians in this area to SEE you. Which is funny because I am one of those things and I assure you I don't get looked at at all. And I know all about the bonds you speak of and I totally agree with your vies on keeping exs on as part of "the family" it is truly bizarre. I really do like to read your blog. You say a lot of things that I'm sure others are afraid to. I guess I just wish you'd give people a chance. Perhaps there is something from your past that made you as pissed off as you seem. I can relate to that too. The bottom line is that we're all just trying to find our place in this god awful state. It seems like you have found yours.